My Favorite Mistake

Sooooo... I have decided to let Zack and Alex stay with me while they get on their feet. That's all it is... the SHORT opportunity for them to get on their feet. Why you may ask? Well for those of you who know me at all, you'll already know... Even though I'm pretty much forfeiting any possibility of my end goal. Justin is gonna prob be pissed... But I guess that's what I get/deserve and you know what... I only slightly care. Its about time I do what I want, even if its bound to hurt me in the long run... And I KNOW it will.

I have always felt that people who are more fortunate should help those who aren't. Granted, there's more driving this decision than that... There's friendship, caring, and ... I'd love to come out of this experience better off... Happier... More stable in life and maybe, hopefully (though prob not) I will. If not, at least I made an attempt... I tried to make someones... two people's... lives better... I'll have given them a chance to make something of themselves at my expense... You can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink. Its up to them now.

The best I can hope for is...
"to find the best in others; to give one's self; to leave the world a little better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition"

Or maybe... Just maybe... This is all in vain... And I'm LOST.
Daniel Delphin, CCNP, MCSE


In the darkness of terror, this poem provides a twinkle of hope

I'd almost forgotten about this poem until an old friend reminded me that I had part of it in my Facebook profile... so here it is in its entirety. For me, it reminds me that life is full of difficulties, inspires me to recognize and conquer them, and helps me to feel proud of who/what I am today even if I'm not where I want to be yet.

If - Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

Blading down 43rd and 9th

Daniel Delphin, CCNP, MCSE

Blading down 43rd and 9th

Daniel Delphin, CCNP, MCSE


Why is RadioShack still alive?

Honestly, I really don't get this. Why is this company still around? They don't do anything special. They seem to try to be a mix of everything, from selling cell phones to computers to video game systems to electronic components and they just suck at it all. They never have anything your looking for because they've spread their product lines so wide they only have the bare minimum of everything, or the product is just stupid. Take the picture as an example. Honestly, they either need to retool or throw in the towel!
Daniel Delphin, CCNP, MCSE


So here I am...

And I find it kind funny, I find it kinda sad... these dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had...

Why is it that we are lured in by beauty? We let ourselves get roped in and we open ourselves up and we learn about the other and the more we learn, the more we like and the more we get sucked in until there is no escape... like an asteroid caught in the suns gravity, we're too close... but the strange thing... the thing that takes the cake... is that as we approach the sun, now having no power to get away, that light we're attracted to like a moth gets separated from us by a transparent wall... causing us to be able to look but not touch... to clearly be able to see but not to be able to have... that wall is the wall of friendship and its a horrible horrible thing... and like a moth, we thrash around and bash our heads into the wall continuously because we cannot help ourselves and we'd prefer to bloody or kill ourselves for the possibility of breaking through rather than be on this side of the wall.

Yeah, its like that.


I deserve better

You know what, I'm tired... Tired of spending so much money, tired of loaning money to friends and never seeing it again, tired of being used, tired of persuing people who at times seem to have ulterior motives. I need to cut those people out of my life. I def need to not let myself be attracted to people like this, as pretty as they may be. I am worth something and that something is at least more then these types of people. If those are the only type I attract, then maybe, I need to be alone. It would cost me thousands of dollars less and I'd prob get more accomplished and more centered. Don't get me wrong... I'd give the world (or as much of it as I can afford) to someone who was amazing on their own, truely cared for me, and who I had a real deep connection with. As far as I'm concerned, everyone else may as well ignore me because IM NOT PAYING FOR THINGS ANYMORE! YOU'RE ALL ON YOUR OWN!
Daniel Delphin, CCNP, MCSE